The concentration camp

10:26pm: Rob's bday
I went to Rob's bday for the 4th. Caught on fire lighting bottle rockets. We waited till latenight to light off the big ones, and I met a really cute girl that goes to Rob's bible study. Good times.

I gotta get out. I gotta hang out. I need air, friends, and fudge mint oreos.



I'm out.

6:15pm: I wanna run away...I don't care who with, so long as they gimme a ride...



Oh man, I don't even have a basement. What is that smell?

Seriously, someone take me away, I don't care where, just so long as it isn't here or camp union. Or work.

5:59pm: I found a car. A 1990 VW jetta for $1800. Calling the guy tomorrow.

I guess I am gonna have to register for the winter quarter at OC, seeing as how I never got a chance to register earlier this year, thanks to my mother's phobia of driving in Bremerton. I'll have to apply online and drive down there when I get a car *sigh*...

I'm not gonna be online so much anymore seeing as I'm not at school and in direct access of a computer, but I'll update when I can and if you wanna hang out, gimme a call...you know the number, and if you don't, well, you're not that great of a friend, now are you?

Anyway, I gotta go.


Later gators,


Jewsauce

12:16pm: It looks like crack...

I am sweet, like Sugar. I am all sweetness and light; fluffy bunnies and dancing fairies; happiness and joy. Too much of me will make you sick. What Flavour Are You?

11:58am: Apparantly, you knew all along. It's not my fault. I didn't want it to happen anymore than you. Blame Crispy and Shanny.

11:12am: I need icons...

9:40am: Now I can't stop thinking about her. Damn you Crispy!

9:50am: Everything that has a beginning...has an end.
I am losing the title of little_jew. You can now find me as hirom. I have much to do to make the account my own, like icons and what not, but I wanted a new journal.

We graduate in 9 days. Weirdness.


I hate Shanny312 and cause_789... They know why.


I'm out.

12:37pm: Religion is so great.
1. Reform Judaism (100%) http://www.beliefnet.com/story/80/story_8054_1.html

• Belief in Deity
Beliefs vary among adherents, including that of nonbelief or questioning belief, and all are welcome and considered personal, but the official stance is that there is one God Almighty--Creator, all-powerful, ever-present, and all knowing--formless, incorporeal spirit.

• Incarnations
None, as only God is worshipped. Moses was the greatest of all prophets.

• Origin of Universe and Life
Most believe that Genesis is to be understood symbolically. God created and controls all phenomena revealed by modern science.

• After Death
Reform Jews believe in the world to come and a messianic age (but no individual Messiah). Personal beliefs in the details of afterlife are diverse, as there is no official position. Some believe in heaven and hell but only as states of consciousness; some believe in reincarnation; some believe God is all-forgiving; and some may not believe in an actual afterlife. Regardless, Judaism generally focuses on living a virtuous life, rather than working toward reward after death.

• Why Evil?
No original sin. Most often, Satan is interpreted symbolically to represent selfish desires that are inherent within all. God gave people free will, and people are responsible for their actions.

• Salvation
The main emphasis is on living the kind of life that God commands, which will surely be rewarded if there is an afterlife. Most believe God is forgiving of all; there is no hell to which some are condemned. Salvation is achieved through faith and prayer to God, good works, concern for the earth and humanity, and behavior that does no harm to others. The extent to which one follows Jewish Law is an individual decision.

• Undeserved Suffering
God gave humans free will to feel pleasure and pain, and his purpose in allowing deep suffering of the innocent must be good even if mysterious. It is generally believed that God suffers along with the sufferer. More important than knowing why God allows suffering is to work to help those in need.

• Contemporary Issues
Judaism holds that human life begins upon first breath, and Jewish law requires abortion if necessary to save the mother's life prior to birth. Most believe potential human life should never be terminated casually, but it is generally regarded as a personal decision, especially within the first 40 days of pregnancy. Homosexuality: Homosexuals are God's creation, and Jewish instruction is to love our neighbors as ourselves. Reform (and Conservative) Judaism have a long history of support for homosexual rights.

9:44am: Same compost heap, and all that.
I have an endless sense of curiosity and wonder. And all the while, in my search for the horizon, I forget to stop and smell the roses.

I take more for granted than I should, and for that I am sorry.

How lonely the life of wonder can be...

9:36am: Date with BIZ!
I went to TROY with Biz, and thoroughly annoyed her with all the wise cracks at the movie. It was fun though. I spent an insane amount of six hours in the company of Biz, I think we have had enough of each other for the next week.

Why do I miss Patti?

9:46am: little_jew

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The uterus is like a self-cleaning oven. That is my random thought of the day...

1:07pm: HAHAHAHA...bosom.
( Smut )

1:25pm: Prom sucked!
Dinner made me nauseous, it cost me fifty bucks, and I'm pretty sure I broke my hip when I jumped on the couch. Patti ditched me to go get intoxicated, just as I was asking her to dance, and Heather's date was clinging to her as if he would fall into the sky if he let go...all night long. Then to top it off, Biz said, "Don't feel so bad, at least you're not Kelvin."

...

COMPARING ME TO A BIG LOSER JUST REMINDS ME THAT I'M STILL A LOSER!!!


After prom we all went to Clear Water Casino and I slept on the way there. Apparantly, I was still pissed off while sleeping because I started bitching inaudibly, in my sleep. I kind of felt like the odd-man out: Not wanted by anyone, but tolerated by everyone.

If I were a dog, I'd be a Jack Russel Terrier...My Random thought of the day.

10:49am: Ah, Sex scenes.
I started writing the dirty part of my 'romance novel'. I'll post it when I finish. I am trying to make it as funny as possible. I think I'm succeeding. I had a pretty funny/dirty dream last night, (though I won't tell you who was in it, so don't bother asking), and it fueled my imagination. This is gonna be awesome. Bet you can't wait.

Later Gators,

That Dirty Jew!

11:24am: If I had a million dollars.
I'd quit my job.
I'd buy a car and a motorcycle.
I'd go to the college of my choice.
I'd go open a comic book/hobbie shop called: Planet Nerd...
I'd take a vacation to Germany, and invite one of you along.
I'd write a romance novel.
I'd take you all out for a steak dinner.
I'd by shares in the Coca-Cola company.
I'd donate 5% of my first year of income to the NRA, and another 5% to the Christian's Children Fund, just to get them off my back.
I'd get a new computer.

That's my random thought of the day.

10:08am: I learn something new everyday.
I learned how to do this and this.

Pretty cool, huh?

I apologize for the previous nonsense.

Crispy's making me a new icon for my lj. Yayness. He'll know what to do.

Apparantly Shan and I are updating at the same time, for we both are being forced to listen to crappy music in Alder's class. (Note to Shanny, we should join forces and undertake a mission to assasinate the crazy French-Canadian bitch. We will be praised as heroes).

I have never needed a car more than I do now. I am so sick of having to have my mother be my fucking chaperone everywhere I go. I depend upon my mom or my friends for everything I do. It is the most frustrating thing in the world.

One of the waitresses told me I was her favorite busser. That made me happy. Even though I am only a mere busser, having someone tell you you are their favorite always feels good.

Hen said she was going to stop playing DND. I have taken it upon myslef to convince her otherwise. Apparantly she overheard a bunch of FF fans calling role-players 'geeks'. Rather be a role-player than an anime fanboy/girl. Lame-asses. HOW DARE THEY?! WHO THE HELL DO THEY THINK THEY ARE?!


Later Gators,


Ty

10:07am: *Sigh*
I lost the pictures that Crispy sent me from his house. I saved them in my documents, and then when I went to open them, they weren't there. And I already deleted the email they were on...

I wonder sometimes, who I really am. It doesn't dawn on people how others thought of them until they die. I wonder how people would react if I died suddenly...who would cry, who would comfort, who would be "he's gone to a better place"? I want my death to be a joyous occasion, where everyone remembers the joy I had of life, not the sadness of my parting. I haven't the slightest clue why I am thinking about this, but...I am.

I love life.

9:53am: Relief
I finished the Chem presentation this morning, and 5 minutes later, was the first to present. I made and ass of myself when I tried to do math on the board, but nothing I'm not used to. Sarah just kind of sat back and watched, and Brandon wasn't there. I feel a huge weight come off my shoulders.

I have a little crush on someone, but for the first time in awhile I find it hard to express it. The more I talk to her, the more I think she doesn't feel the same way. That's probably what makes it diffucult to express.

I still have to do the layout for my newspaper in Journalism, but it hasn't phased me yet.

I'm finally kicking the Coke habit. It's slowly being replaced with applejuice. No more worrying about getting an ulcer.

Ms. Tucker left a note on my BEST card telling me to see her ASAP. I'm not going. She'll ask me how much of my portfolio I have done (which is nothing) and then she'll ask me why I don't have it done...YOU DIDN'T TELL ME I WAS STUDENT OF THE MONTH UNTIL A WEEK AGO!!! I don't have the time or energy for this.

I'm working tonight. Someone come hang out with me. I'm lonely.


Tyler

12:02pm: Stress!
I have to finish the Lab we were assigned in Chemistry class, and the experiment was never finished. I still have to finish the problem sheet from last week, and I don't know how. I don't know how to use the graphing program, I have only half the data I need, the calculations don't add up, and my group is me and two incompetant people (so three incompetant people). I should have taken stream ecology...

I have two cartoons to do for the 4-page newspaper, and I have no ideas.

I passed the driver's ed. test the 2nd time 'round with a 92. Yay for the Jewish kid.

I have yet to do the book cover for poison clan press. I'm backed into a corner right now.

If I bite, forgive me...


Jew

1:26pm: Does anyone know how to make moving icons? I want an animated one based off the 'swirly' at Crispy's house.

Anyone?

1:33pm: Um...
I just spent 10 minutes reading through Shan's requests to stay on her friend's list.

While I was doing that, I tried to think of something to post. I have things on my mind, some that I don't want to talk about, but it is a journal, right? Here goes:

Pat has been planning on us getting back together, but after this weekend, I'm not so sure. She expressed that she liked us being friends, and us getting involved again would likely lead us right back to where we were before...

I feel free. And at the same time alone.

Luckily, it gives me the chance to explore something with Jodie, Kelly's cute sister at the bowling alley.

You people need to come to All-Star and hang out, bitches! Not one of my close friends has come in to visit me while I have been working, and Dammit! I get bored! Shan, Crispy, Biz, come take pictures of me at work, we could use one for a new icon. I have a Conan, an Alf, and Yoda. I need new ones.

I'm out.


Jewsauce.

9:57am: Sweet weekend!
Got my tatoo at Fade 2 Black on Friday. The guy was like 'that will be about $40.' Sweet deal for me. Pat's getting her's done and while that's going on, the same guy who gave me the price earlier comes up to me and he's like 'So yours is $140.'

If Pat weren't there, and I had my lisence, and a car of my own, I would have went home right there.

'I don't have that much on me.' I say.

'How much you got?' He says.

'$100.'

'Just a sec.' He goes into the back where Pat's geting hers done and I hear him exlplaining to the other guy that I don't have $140 on me. Later, when Pat's is done, he comes out and tells us he'll do mine AND hers for the hundred, and we can pay him the rest tomorrow. Sweet. I guess the guy he was talkin' to was the owner of the joint. Even sweeter, the guy inking it (the 'owner') says 'Yesterday was your birthday? Don't worry 'bout the rest man, we just take the hundred and call it a present, kay?' Sweetness. Today I'm not even sore or red or anything, it's great.

Went and got my tux, I got a white vest and tie, a zute-suit jacket, white shoes and pants. I bet I'll look like Colonel Sanders.

Bought some fantasy novels from Waldenbooks with the gift card Patti gave me. I'm gonna finish 'Mere Christianity' before I start the others.

Went to Al's after the tatoo, and we couldn't find his house because of the crappy map he gave us, so at 10 in the evening, we asked his neighbor where he lived. We sat in Patti's car talking about what was gonna happen to 'us'. She said she liked being friends, and it hurt a little, but I'll move on. We waited in the driveway until Sam and Jen came home. Al and I went down to old town Poulsbo, and chilled in the park. Then we got lost in the burbs coming home. When we got back, we popped Highlander into the VCR and passed out.

Saturday we went and played checkers at the coffee house on the corner. Al kicked my ass. Then we played idiot, and Al and Patti kicked my ass. But it couldn't bring down how sweet the weekend was.


Sweet.


Jewsauce.

1:39pm: failed the test for Driver's Ed. yesterday. By one question. On my birthday. Oh well, I'll just take it again on Wednesday, no biggee.

Gonna go Tux shopping with Pat today, I'm looking for something in 'turquoise'...

Gonna get a tatoo as well. Good times.

Goin' to Al's tonight. Haven't seen his new house yet with its 'secret passageway'. Gonna crash there, but he won't be home til like 10 or 11, so I gotta fuck around til then.

I have to get around to getting a new icon...


Later Gators,


Jewsauce

9:39am: 4/29/04=My birthday!
Yay. I'm 18 today. My mommy got me a buch of clothes that don't fit, and so I'm gonna shrink them in the washer. Also got a Star of David, which I put on the chain with the old cross I never wore.

Saw Kill Bill Vol. 1 yesterday. Wasn't very impressed.

No dnd session this weekend, so I'm free all day Friday (hint, hint, anybody).

Last day of Driver's Ed. today. Best gift ever.

Mom bought me 'The Goonies' on DVD. I'm a gonna be watchin' that when I get home.


Jewsauce